today being an ordianry sundary i felt extremely lonely. for such a hyper-happy person...today was indeed a sad day. the phone wasnt appealing, neither was the computer. book? no. nothing. He had my attention alright. All of it. Sometimes I think he takes everything away just so that he can try and talk to me. listen, i do not. why? its hard to lead the life that I want to live. compromise, compromise. Messes everything up. beautiful people surround me. i wanna share life with them but i cant because i cant.
why do feelings have to be so taxing? i mean physically, i get tired. goodness a girl can only take so much.
Love is too complex a thing for me to even begin to understand. not even sure if i have ever loved . probably have. will never admit it though. pride shakes you at your roots.
and why do men have to be great?!?!?! utopian world:- no men till you can take the pressure. no joke. emotionally drained.
when airline travel picks up again, i am gonna be on top of it all. dont ask. just a dream. Oliphant airlines, unless i can get another name for it. losing steam.
muchlove
missafrica2001